I read the title of this blog post on Lysa TerKeurst blog this morning. Many times in the past, I swear Lysa and I are twins from different mothers. I have posted witty comments on her blog thinking she will undoubtedly see the comment, know that I am her soon-to-be best friend and thus we will begin a beautiful friendship.It's never happened.
Let me go back a few steps...
Several years ago, I made some goals. Now, even writing that is odd to me - since I am not the "goal setting" type. I have issues with perfectionism and failure, so setting goals seems to be like setting myself up for failure. So, I don't do it - except this one time. I won't even tell you what all those goals entailed, but I will share that it had everything to do with God's plan for my life, what I feel (and others have affirmed) are my God-given talents, and what to do with it all. Part of this well written piece of literature (ok, not really...just notes on a piece of paper titled "my big stupid goals") was becoming a part of Proverbs 31 Ministries. I never really defined what "a part of" would look like, I just knew that I loved the mission of this ministry.
Shortly after this time of goal-setting, I was in the car listening to Focus on The Family. The guest that day was Lysa TerKuerst. She immediately captured my attention because she is so darn funny! As her story unfolded, I felt like she was my new best friend; and to top it all off - her family story is one of adoption!
I got home, got on the computer to find out more about this Lysa TerKuerst person - come to find out she founded Proverbs 31 Ministries!
But I digress - wow, that was QUITE a digression!
Back to all things adoption...
OK, Peace or Panic.
This has been the theme of our last week. When things are all said and done, I will share more details about what has been going on . But today I will tell you that the 'peace' to 'panic' way of life is a stressful one. It seems that we wake up with Panic - wondering, worrying what the day will bring...and then peace at the end of the day once everything is taken care of.
Lysa's blog post reminded me that the Peace or Panic mentality is MY DECISION TO MAKE. For me, when I go into Panic mode I forget to stop, and pray. I am so concerned about DOING something to make the panic feeling go away, I am completely oblivious to the fact that no matter what I DO, I am not in control.
So consider this a public declaration - Hence forth, I shall try to stop panicking, and instead Stop. And Pray for peace.
4 comments:
You DO have a lot going on. Your life is about to change in a huge way. But you already know that. Being a parent is sobering - and it is a job that is never over. You are dealing with adding another person into what has been a two people household for a long time. A little person that is going to have very unique needs and issues. Sometimes I think as women, we expect too much out of ourselves - especially if we have a certain personality.
In the days ahead, you may wonder what in the world you have done. You will laugh and you will cry. I have learned that my main goal in life is helping my kids find God's will for their lives and then accomplishing it. That is success.
Peace, friend. :)
echoing what Becky and Michelle wrote! Prayers...
Amen!
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